I was sitting in my desk, looking through some old photos and listening to Vanderlyle Crybaby Geeks, (somehow I always get a bit too nostalgic while listening to The National, they are still my favorite band nonetheless), and I was just thinking that for the 15 years of me riding I’ve been through some though tests to my dedication.
I like to think of myself as a role model, not saying I am, but I try to behave like it. I like to act as if young me ever saw me today, she would like who she became and would be proud of that.
I’ve made some bad decisions along the line that I certainly regret, some I don’t, I don’t think. I’ve made some good ones also.
It has just been such an up and down journey, I was never stable I guess. I actually admire myself for never giving up.
I don’t even remember life without horses, seriously, my youngest memories all involve horses, that means I don’t even remember anything before the age of 8. My boyfriend remembers stuff from when he was 3, jeez think about that… obsessive much haha.
I’m rambling so much this post probably won’t even mean anything to you. I guess for the very small amount of people I consider friends it might mean something, it’s enough I guess.
I think all I wanna say is sometimes you think you’re always in the same place, going nowhere, and it’s good for you to look back. See how far you’ve actually come.
There’s a quote by C.S.Lewis I really like that’s actually spot on what I’m talking about and it reads something like “Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different.”. Think about it, this is so true for so much, not only about your equestrian journey, about your all life.